Failed Expectations

Jeremiah 10:23 I know, O Lord, that a man's life is not his own; it is not for man to direct his steps.

These words are ringing very true for me today. I think of all of the things I thought I would have accomplished by this time in my life, and really only one of them has been done in the time frame I thought. I was a teacher. In some of the things I expected, I am farther than I had planned. I always thought I would go into administration after the age of 40, and I actually went into administration at the age of 34. My expected life for myself at the age of 22 looked very differently than the journey God and I have been on, and I'm completely okay with that. I have lived my life with Jesus, letting Him guide my steps, and this is where it has gotten me. I have become a person at peace, with big hopes and dreams. I pray continually that God will match my desires with His because it has become so obvious that His plans are far more incredible than I could ever dream for myself. This doesn't mean that I don't still hope for a few of those things I had planned years ago, but it does mean that I am trusting God to bring those things into my life at the perfect time, as He has done with everything else. Life is good (I think that's the saying), but life in Jesus is perfect.

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