Psalm 6:9 The Lord has heard my cry for mercy; the Lord accepts my prayer.
This entire Psalm encompasses my feelings today. My family received some unhappy news in regards to Mom's fight with pancreatic cancer. The marker numbers they check were up considerably, so another scan has been ordered. At this point, the next level of chemo is probably necessary. I do not want my mother to have to go through this. My soul is screaming for God to have mercy on her as she fights this battle. This is a crazy place to be. I am completely at peace about Mom's life and her death. Facing the possibility of my mother's death is not what drives me to cry out for mercy for her. It is quite simply the fact that I don't want her (or my dad) to have to do continuous battle anymore. I know they are filled to the fullest in these times, but selfishly, I am weary from the battle. I pray for God's mercy in this time and that the Spirit would wash over my family with His Grace, as we await the next steps of this journey. We are not defeated! We each have the resurrected Christ living in us and he intercedes on our behalf. No greater mercy could be bestowed upon us!
This entire Psalm encompasses my feelings today. My family received some unhappy news in regards to Mom's fight with pancreatic cancer. The marker numbers they check were up considerably, so another scan has been ordered. At this point, the next level of chemo is probably necessary. I do not want my mother to have to go through this. My soul is screaming for God to have mercy on her as she fights this battle. This is a crazy place to be. I am completely at peace about Mom's life and her death. Facing the possibility of my mother's death is not what drives me to cry out for mercy for her. It is quite simply the fact that I don't want her (or my dad) to have to do continuous battle anymore. I know they are filled to the fullest in these times, but selfishly, I am weary from the battle. I pray for God's mercy in this time and that the Spirit would wash over my family with His Grace, as we await the next steps of this journey. We are not defeated! We each have the resurrected Christ living in us and he intercedes on our behalf. No greater mercy could be bestowed upon us!
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